ShaLLoW DeEp WiThiN - ThE EnCoUnTeR...

Breaking the daylight with darkness, I started to pick the twigs scattered at the forest grounds. I had the whole night to lurk in the mist of the woods, and to seek for warmth, seeking for attention…for I’m cold, as cold as the freezing abyss of my sinister world. I first joined the company of fireflies at the swamp of Avalos where it all happened; where every misery I had first crop up.

I sat at the big boulder killing the time, watching the fireflies as they lit little radiance to the swamp. I had been thinking for several nights about my encounter with a human. It disturbed my quiet existence all at once.

I met “her” at this swamp…at this very swamp. She’s so aloof and detached from those others of her kind. She too had been watching the fireflies that occupy the whole fen, just watching inaudibly… but with this, her beautiful composure contradicts her muffled inward shell.

It was odd for me as specie of a different kind that I did not become aware of her presence…her smell was unbelievably dissimilar from those other human’s smell. It’s not that distinctive and effortless to distinguish, that’s why I stalked and gazed at her from a distance.

The crave of my body for food defies my mind to harm the human…I waited for her to leave the place but even more she came to notice my presence. Anxious and fretful, she looked at me as I stood at the top of the boulder. With a wink of an eye, I moved swift towards her trying to warn her and fall back…but it was useless. I moved even closer with a sharp stare at her, closer and closer…

I suddenly bunged and freezed, her eyes were as brown as mine; it was as brown as the brownest color ever tainted. As I stopped, words from her mouth thaw out my arctic heart…

“Why do you stay in this kind of place? …are you also here for the fireflies?” with voice so gentle and warm.

As to my astonishment, I draw my body back and heed to the fireflies…

“Yeah, I’m here for the fireflies. I can see that you are also here for those little lights.”
“No, I’m here to escape myself from other people.” She replied.

(Silence… as strange sounds from the darkness streaks)

“You must not stay any longer…it’s too dangerous out here.” in my head sensing the others of my kind approaching.

With no options to take, I grabbed and clutched her whole body at my chest as I ran rapidly.
She then was quite embarrassed but out of her mind staring at me, she did not even discern that we’re moving very fast extraordinarily. We reached the nearest road just a matter of seconds, and I dropped her down.

“What are you?!” affronted as she asked.
“It doesn’t matter; you have to go now…” with my heart pounding hard as I felt it for the first time for all the centuries I had gone into this world. I did not even bother to ask her name, we just stared at each other committing to our memory the figure of our visage.

And by then, she left.

A sAd LovE LeTTer

For you,

Before you read this letter of mine, I want you to know that by heart and soul… you’ll never be forgotten, that you’ll never fade in my thinking ‘til the day that dust shall eat my body. This, I wish you should read for nights of relentless and agonizing emotions I draw on, to finish this… I don’t know how to let this words be spoken but through this letter may I be able to say to you… a sad love letter I ever wrote, the saddest of all love letters I made.

………….The more I get rid off of the feeling, the more I get attached from you… your sweetness, your caress, your ever loving stare that melts my entire system. You make me move as if I will not get tired forever. You bloomed the day with great amity and love, you stapled my heart with hope that we’ll stay hand in hand, you made me believe that we’ll love ceaselessly.

But you’re confused… you dragged me into this emotion like a trap that has its pain and winding throbbing. You’re sweetness chased my very nerve to its doom to taste the bitter consequence of expectation. Your “I love you…” twinge this little organ in my chest that constantly seeks for your warmth, your lasting warmth.

At times that my soul needs another soul to hook upon to, you were there. All those memorable memories my wholeness had gone into, you were there. I don’t know why but something special between us keeps the flame of our relationship burning and surviving. You loved me as I had loved you but we parted ways to avoid conflict, to avoid pain.

We’re afraid to let the pain eat us and engulf our minds with hatred and fallacy. You made the choice; you left to escape the pain, to escape the emotion. You left because you don’t want the emotion to grow even more until the time that it can’t be proscribed.

You left without any words or thoughts to say, even a farewell… a formal farewell. We both know the feeling is there, the love is there but how can we nurture such feeling if we both know it’s too late to outburst the axioms of love publicly.

It’s a grave sin both of us will hurdle… that’s why you left, that’s why you run away from me.

I was left with nothing but questions, with nothing except for the memories we had. The good and heartwarming memories; do you remember

the day we first held hands,
the day we first stared at each other,
the day we walked together,
the day we saw a shooting star with hands locked at each other,
the day I first kissed you at the nose,
the day you said you love me and you miss me,
the day you held my back to ease the pain in me,
the night we shared the moment at the beach,
the hours of darkness I looked at you as if you’re the only obsession that surrounds me,
the night we clinched the moment as we gazed at the moon.

Do you remember all those thoughts of love…those untold and undefiled affection we shared.

I’m now facing this piece of shit with my mind tousled… why did you leave? Why…?

As I finish this diminutive epistle, I long to see your grin, your sugary smile even for the last moment…

Even for the last time.

With great hope,
From me.